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[Jan. 7th, 2010|09:18 pm] |
Today I stayed at home, because I wanted to mope. To feel sorry for myself, wallow in self pity for a little while longer before I take on the arduous journey ahead of me which is 2010.
Sometimes I just cannot bring myself to do the things I have to do.
But this has to stop, because it is absolutely pathetic. I do realise that there is more to life, and that there are better things out there to anticipate. There are nights where I feel my surroundings closing in on me with haunting, but very dear memories. But till I suffocate.
Things are never really settled. You can finish reading a book but the story lives on.
Ok basically I didn't go out because I have no cash, but that's besides the point. I doubt I even have 5 bucks. I had a good hair day but there was no one to witness it..
Sigh I'm a solitairy operator.
Not very keen about studying, even though I was a couple of days ago (I SWEAR). Not very keen about eating, not very keen about sleeping at the right times, not very keen about meeting old friends though they are on my mind, not very keen about cleaning my room, not very keen about talking, talking about life, not very keen about telling the truth anymore actually.
I will be the same girl, nevertheless.
My sister is rambling but I am not listening. That's the problem in this family. Nobody exactly listens.
So tonight I assume that I will continue to mope. Or maybe try to do something constructive at least.
SIGH all I want to do is sigh. |
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[Jan. 7th, 2010|09:15 pm] |
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Hii today has been a fufilling day. School, lunch w Maji, Rajin, Nash & Chacha miteh came over, went down with em, Shirin called and wanted t meet, met her. This is tiring, we're going round in circles. Im tired, and honestly speaking, i dont really care anymore. Cos we always seem to end up where we started off. Dont wana be the one who's putting in the extra effort to go that extra mile. Im tired, and trust me when I say im not bothered anymore. Even if it withers away, im fine with it. Because it's just reached a point where I dont care anymore. And its the same with some other people/things, i really dont care anymore. Whatever happens, happens.
Shirin asked me who i miss the most today, hmm.
Im damn annoyed with the fact that boys have to serve the nation. I mean like yeah, its good and all, but its like rawrrr. 3 omg 3 yknow, no joke!! This always happen to me :( NS NS RAWR.
I love you Maji, so much!
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[Jan. 6th, 2010|11:28 am] |
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The first few days right after I arrive in Singapore from the States, I was seriously jet lagged. I'll go to sleep way before my bed time and wake up even earlier than days where I had to go to school and I'll pass my time wandering around the house as I always do. I always seem to have nothing to do but in actual fact, I have so many things on my hand to complete, I don't know where to start, therefore leading me to wander around.
I like my NYE this year despite it not being the usual parties and stuff. I actually spent most of my day sleeping away but at least I got to eat xlb in the day with my special someone :o) I only remember waking up to the sounds of the countdown so it was pretty epic. Woke up JUST IN TIME :)
 
2010 started off pretty well, so I am expecting a good year ahead ^^ Minus the fact that there's A levels to conquer and MSA on the FIRST freaking week of school :/ Seriously?! Bummerzzz. Anyway, got to celebrate Michelle's birthday with almost the entire 69! ♥ much!!! There were so many impromptu decisions made on that day :P It just reminds me of the good old days back in Crescent. Crazy things :)
The next few days were pretty mundane especially with bb gone :'( Oh yes, I am gonna become a brace face by March! I am excited because I can accessorize my teeth with pretty colours and straight teeth babyyy :P Not excited for the tooth extraction at all or the fact that I'll have to feed on congee for a few days? IDK.
Alright, finally going out again today! ^^
P.S Tania and I are doing a twin thing :) She's gonna use my ID photo for her card just because she doesn't have hers :P I gave her a really really ugly one hehehehehehe |
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[Jan. 5th, 2010|10:47 pm] |
“Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.”
— Mitch Albom
I think I think too much. Oh by the way, school has been quite good. |
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[Jan. 5th, 2010|08:02 pm] |
Wow, its been a really long time.
I'll be back soon.
Too many things, too many. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2010|01:32 pm] |
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I can't mug for more than 2 consecutive hours now!
Dead.
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[Jan. 3rd, 2010|04:38 pm] |
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Celebrated birthday wtih cell.
Really awesome stuff.
Sermon was great yesterday too.
School's starting in a week's time , booooooo ):
Kay, gotta catch up with work and other stuff.
:)
Happy new year if it isn't too late! |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|11:19 pm] |
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Janna says:
woah, since when did harmin become so... optimistic?
haha
Harminder says:
HAHAHAHAHA
new year resolution babe!
see the best in everyone and the best in everything
Janna says:
sweet(:
and it's only the 2nd day! Looks like I am keeping to my new year resolution, feewit! :D I feel crazily hyper. Better stop before I go nuts. BYEEE
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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|04:31 am] |
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This too shall pass. Besides, it shouldn't have been about me from the start. I guess I was selfish, aren't we all? It's ironic how you feel responsible about me, but I feel that you shouldn't even care in the first place.
You've made me realise that I was wrong. I've always thought that people had their place and time. That everyone was allocated to be in other people's lives for a certain period of time and once their time was up, they leave. So that was how I felt towards you. I thought it was another, 'Hey, I gotta go be a big part in someone else's life now. Hope you enjoyed the ride.' Honestly, I could have lived with that. But I would have lived in slow, tormenting denial. And I just want to thank you. For making the effort, for trying (because you know I wouldn't), for caring. To put it across really bluntly, thank you for giving a shit. Thank you friend, and I love you very much. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|12:44 am] |
Happy (belated) birthday me, I'm 18 now. I guess the first 16 hours of my birthday was awesome, perfect even. Then it just went downhill from there. The two people who actually made it this way have been Simran, and Molly. Simran was just being the best. He's the sweetest person I've ever known and I'm so glad I spent the start of the year with him :) Molly, kept calling me and wishing me and reminding me how lucky I am t have her as a friend and THANKYOU LOVE! I know you called me just now t complain and rant but it made me feel better. I was really feeling rather down and talking t you made me :) I love you both soooooooo much!!!!
Thankyou to the rest too. You've been awesome! And every single sms/call/wish has been pretty darn splendid. haha. :) Love you guys! |
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|05:33 pm] |
My new year resolutious;
#1 I need to learn how to be more patient. Patience is a virtue that brings you a long way!!!!! And patience helps you get along with people who are big time procrastinators. And guilty as charged I am the biggest one around.
#2 I need to stop being so afraid of what people think. Their opinions don't matter, even though they may or may not concern me. Most of the time they do, and I just need to be a tough cookie and sort out my emotional issues. I can't afford to be another emotional wreck this year yet again with other things being top priority, EG: Family, Friends who matter & Studies
#3 I need to stop being envious of other people and work my way towards it what I want. I dare not talk much about this because it's a bit personal but it's true. Sometimes I feel like a huge hypocrite myself and I need to stop that.
#4 I need to brace myself for the worst because I am such a weakling at heart and a sucker for sad moments. 2010 will be an exciting year, it'll either be the year I'll never forget or the year I'll always remember. Either way it's gonna leave me impacted. And I have to make the best out of it.
#5 I need to learn how to avoid big-headed creeps that are annoying and irritating and do NOT work to the end of a friendship bargain. If people don't want to be cared about, we shouldn't care about them. If people don't want help, don't help them. If people don't want you to talk to them, don't talk to them. It's very simple, yet I am so stubborn.
Enough said, happy new year everyone! :) And happy birthday Teranjit Kour Sandu! I hope you had an awesome birthday and you know I love you many many :D thank you for being there!!! Oh and my 'countdown party' yesterday was.....a new experience. Heh.
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|12:37 pm] |
2010.... is going to be helllll. [A-levels]
I can't wait to get my entire education over and done with, so sick of studying.
I got only four hours of sleep yesterday. -.-
Slept under the stars, and drifted off to sleep listening to the waves crashing; had a really nice dream :)
^ haha so cute!
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|03:10 am] |
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It's gonna be 10 times better
A good start with awesome company
Time to forget t past & move forward |
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[Dec. 30th, 2009|03:36 pm] |
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2009 is coming to an end. OMG! |
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[Dec. 29th, 2009|01:23 am] |
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Perhaps some may not believe the following.
But i have to say, it is absolutely true.
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I'm sure you've heard your parents, nagging @ you constantly to take special care of your belongings when you are out. (esp @ crowded places).
Most of us (me) believe that this is only applicable overseas.
Singapore is such a fine and well city, no one would ever try to pick pocket/steal/snatch your stuff.
Even if it really do happen, it would be @ a dark alley/a quiet road/@ night... (& the list goes on)
That has been my mentality of things, until today...
Small group and cha went bugis junction today to have a mini birthday celebration.
After eating; chatting; taking photos, we went shopping.
You know, it's an all girls event, what do you expect?
'Hurs' was having sale and all, so it was pretty crowded.
I was standing in front of this middle aged, non-chinese lady, trying to spot if there were any good stuff around.
She was apparently blocking my view and showed no interest in the clothes.
She merely flicked out a piece of clothing, and placed it back.
She knocked into me twice and then left the shop.
I was trying to take something out of my bag, and realised that the front pocket of my bag was left un-ziped.
I couldn't have forgotten to zip it; even so, the rest would have helped me zip it back by now..
Xue er found something she liked and was about to pay, she realised that her wallet was missing.
Everyone panicked, thinking that she must have misplaced it.
Xue er insisted that she didn't touch her wallet the whole time.
We decided to spilt up to find her wallet, @ the places that she had visited.
However, it was still nowhere to be seen.
Someone suddenly mentioned that the lady was kinda suspicious.
Cha said that she found her hand near her bag.
She thought that her clothes landed on her bag and was trying to get it out. (BUT APPARENTLY NOT SO)
Cha also mentioned that she bumped into her..
Then everyone started sharing that that lady did bump into them too.
It's too much of a coincidence..
We decided to go back to the shop and ask if they saw the lady..
The shop assistant also found her suspicious.
Cause she kept on going in and out of the shop w/o buying anything..
Moreover, the clothes were too young for her (in my opinion).
We were convinced that she had pickpocketed xue er's wallet and decided to find her.
Sure enough, we sort of recognised her @ the fountain area.
We even called down the security, ready to call the cops anytime.
However, since we couldn't really ensure that she was the one, and had no prove, we couldn't go up to her.
Information counter called us , saying xue er's wallet was found.
Everything was intact, except the cash.
Well, valuable lesson leant, always check your belongings, best is to always have them with you, all the time, no matter where you are.
Seriously, pickpocketing in a mall..
Do be careful when you guys are there, she may strike anytime. Lol. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2009|12:47 am] |
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I woke up
A little after 4
I was alarmed
Because I turned over
And you weren’t there
Looking back
It would have been stranger
If you were there
But that wouldn’t matter
I would still hold you until
Long after the sun came up
I’m not sure I would ever let go.
So when I think about
You
I realize that these feelings
These thoughts
These drug induced dreams
Can come only once
And I would be a fool
To let you walk away |
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[Dec. 27th, 2009|05:31 pm] |
I loathe people who wallow in self-pity.
On a lighter note, this December/Christmas has been a wonderful one, thanks to many people. (: Although I've always preferred spending Christmas in America, where the festivities have much deeper meaning... Christmas celebrates the birth of Baby Jesus.. nothing to do with jolly old pagan Santa.
Not exactly looking forward to school next year. I don't miss anyone much, and especially not the teachers. :P
A new year, a new blog? Or perhaps I shall go on a mega long hiatus and post only on softp. :) |
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